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Aug. 24th, 2014 09:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatI all likelihood the neighbors are going to come say I stole their dead tree branches that they'd put on the side of the road. Assuming they were awake. But I NEEED them to make a wishing tree...
This wedding stuff is making me both lose my mind, and reminding me how capable I am. I have been told numerous times now that I'm so organized. ...as I type this on my desk covered in empty coffee cups, un-done projects, chocolate chips, granola..., hair bands and many many other things. Sure, organized. Whatever.
I have not answered a email from the bride's mom with crazy written all over it. I explained it to my family at breakfast like. "Oh I got you this strawberry shaped box at the thrift store because I saw one time you used strawberry jam on your toast, if you don't want it I understand I just thought you'd like it." But it's really one step further than that because once we decide on how to make something they don't quit thinking about it. That brain power could be better used, and all I'm a master of is the redirect. COOOOOL...why don't you think about this instead. YAY. yay. (kill me).
Untangling thread, but the ends keep seeing loops and jumping through them while you work.
plus they keep adding things. Like silly string.
Why am I the one bringing reason this this? Herding CATS!
Understandably I have also been feeling lately, that while other people think I'm cool/great/awesome for whatever reason, I do not. I am not who I want to be and I'm having a hard time thinking through the haze of this wedding crap to figure out how to be more of who I am.
aaaand I got distracted by looking up yarn. It's unfortunate, but I think I'll have to go to the store for more yarn again. Terrible. I'll make it throught I'm sure. Just...don't send help. I probably died in a pile of yarn, very happy.
I don't know that I feel really any better than last time I made emo all over the place. I've just been distracted from it, which doesn't really seem like a good way to deal with anything. It is really interesting to me how I feel very lonely when I'm required to be with people more frequently than I would on my own. Yet to counter that, I need to spend a lot of time alone to feel better.
This wedding stuff is making me both lose my mind, and reminding me how capable I am. I have been told numerous times now that I'm so organized. ...as I type this on my desk covered in empty coffee cups, un-done projects, chocolate chips, granola..., hair bands and many many other things. Sure, organized. Whatever.
I have not answered a email from the bride's mom with crazy written all over it. I explained it to my family at breakfast like. "Oh I got you this strawberry shaped box at the thrift store because I saw one time you used strawberry jam on your toast, if you don't want it I understand I just thought you'd like it." But it's really one step further than that because once we decide on how to make something they don't quit thinking about it. That brain power could be better used, and all I'm a master of is the redirect. COOOOOL...why don't you think about this instead. YAY. yay. (kill me).
Untangling thread, but the ends keep seeing loops and jumping through them while you work.
plus they keep adding things. Like silly string.
Why am I the one bringing reason this this? Herding CATS!
Understandably I have also been feeling lately, that while other people think I'm cool/great/awesome for whatever reason, I do not. I am not who I want to be and I'm having a hard time thinking through the haze of this wedding crap to figure out how to be more of who I am.
aaaand I got distracted by looking up yarn. It's unfortunate, but I think I'll have to go to the store for more yarn again. Terrible. I'll make it throught I'm sure. Just...don't send help. I probably died in a pile of yarn, very happy.
I don't know that I feel really any better than last time I made emo all over the place. I've just been distracted from it, which doesn't really seem like a good way to deal with anything. It is really interesting to me how I feel very lonely when I'm required to be with people more frequently than I would on my own. Yet to counter that, I need to spend a lot of time alone to feel better.
