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Nov. 25th, 2013 07:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatIt snowed. I was pleased, and inside. We were suppose to help out other departments and things. I tried helping grocery but I can only face shelves for so long without getting super bored. It's not like normally where we're "done" after all the rows. By the time you get to the end of a row it's been devastated again. After asking a few departments about needing help I went and packaged things for specialty. I can't eat their cheese and I don't drink, so the only thing I can really tell people about is the olives and coffee. Sadly our coffee is terrible. I brought in my french press and made good coffee all day in our office.
Then of course because I ate cookies and chicken nuggets for dinner, and half of my food today was cookies, I cried on the way home. Sometimes I wonder if I get overwhelmed with other people's feels. Or not feels. I don't even know. Like I wish I could just shut off the part of me that suddenly receives whatever feelings from people. I sense weirdness. Now what. Am I suppose to do something? I'm like a turd in this type of situation. Thankfully that's the only type of situation I seem to create with other people.
Strangely I don't really feel upset right now. There are waves now and then but I'm kind of full of tacos and I want to sleep sort of. I kind of want to talk to more people about what to do about life, but I'm mostly out of people for that. I feel very directionless and all I know how to do is just sort of wait. ...turd.
...this all sounds so self depreciating, but I don't actually feel super down on myself. I just have this strange feeling like I shouldn't just be sitting back and coasting. Like someone is running around nagging me to be "proactive" and I'm just getting annoyed because I don't know what the hell it is I'm even suppose to do.
*flail* & *durp*
Then of course because I ate cookies and chicken nuggets for dinner, and half of my food today was cookies, I cried on the way home. Sometimes I wonder if I get overwhelmed with other people's feels. Or not feels. I don't even know. Like I wish I could just shut off the part of me that suddenly receives whatever feelings from people. I sense weirdness. Now what. Am I suppose to do something? I'm like a turd in this type of situation. Thankfully that's the only type of situation I seem to create with other people.
Strangely I don't really feel upset right now. There are waves now and then but I'm kind of full of tacos and I want to sleep sort of. I kind of want to talk to more people about what to do about life, but I'm mostly out of people for that. I feel very directionless and all I know how to do is just sort of wait. ...turd.
...this all sounds so self depreciating, but I don't actually feel super down on myself. I just have this strange feeling like I shouldn't just be sitting back and coasting. Like someone is running around nagging me to be "proactive" and I'm just getting annoyed because I don't know what the hell it is I'm even suppose to do.
*flail* & *durp*
