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Nov. 24th, 2013 06:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatit is far to late at night to hook up my big speakers but that's really want I want to do. I'm fed and watered and I want to do things. But now of course I'm also ready to sleep.
I've gotten really resentful of my job lately. I don't understand why. It could be me pushing myself to get a different job and try to fix my treading water style of living. There could also be an undercurrent of panic that is filtering down to all of us from the store management. I just know that I've had a serious need to just walk away from everything because it disgusts me. It's not logical and I don't even know what I would do. I don't have any other income. There is no hope without this job as a stepping stone for another, right now as everything stands.
I was walking today and thought about how I tend to gravitate towards people who are either naturally introspective or have had enough therapy to know how to look at themselves. How it's funny that I don't like tv, but I want people to tell me stories. Tell me about you. I want to talk sometimes too, but more often I am entranced by listening. I was never meant to be a person I should have been a dog or a cat. Some situation where I get held and I get to hear things.
Maybe I just like when people seem to genuinely care about things, and there are few things people care about more than themselves.
Can I just be in a relationship like this? That would be great. where do I sign up? I have the comforter thing totally down, it's just blue not red.
I've gotten really resentful of my job lately. I don't understand why. It could be me pushing myself to get a different job and try to fix my treading water style of living. There could also be an undercurrent of panic that is filtering down to all of us from the store management. I just know that I've had a serious need to just walk away from everything because it disgusts me. It's not logical and I don't even know what I would do. I don't have any other income. There is no hope without this job as a stepping stone for another, right now as everything stands.
I was walking today and thought about how I tend to gravitate towards people who are either naturally introspective or have had enough therapy to know how to look at themselves. How it's funny that I don't like tv, but I want people to tell me stories. Tell me about you. I want to talk sometimes too, but more often I am entranced by listening. I was never meant to be a person I should have been a dog or a cat. Some situation where I get held and I get to hear things.
Maybe I just like when people seem to genuinely care about things, and there are few things people care about more than themselves.
Can I just be in a relationship like this? That would be great. where do I sign up? I have the comforter thing totally down, it's just blue not red.
