not fixing that spelling error...

[demakat]

My dad is down stairs telling stories of work he's done. His resume doesn't reflect it however because it will just say he worked sewer and water for 30+ years.

I think I'm disappointed. That knowing how to actually DO things doesn't get anyone a job anymore. People hiring just want the prettiest words, the correct answer to an open ended question, the most confident bullshit.

The most powerless space traveler.
"I chased so many stars I could never go home again"

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Now that I have it done my cactus costume seems very silly. I know the feeling will pass and that it has a lot to do with being done with it. The rush of a finished project, viewed the next morning.

I feel like there is something that I'm suppose to do that expresses what I feel. That I have this weird power and I haven't found the right medium to get it out yet. It did use to be drawing, but it isn't quite right anymore. Or it is but I'm not doing the right part of it. Like one time I got told that what I wanted was dumb or something, and now it's slowly reeling me in so that I don't notice what's happening.

Whatever is reeling had best watch out for the burst damage.

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Not sure if I should go as a cactus to the pumpkin carving party or not. I still have to make noodles for the stew. Maybe pumpkin cookies...

I'm getting overly excited for this day of the dead party next weekend. I know of some of the people who are going to be there, small world after all style. I hope it's cool.

My hands are all sad and dry. Not being super fat in the winter kind of sucks. It's actually cold, my skin is all dried out and I still can't fit my calves into boots. Put that box inside of another box and SMASH IT WITH A HAMMER!

Comments

[willowistari]

I've noticed around here it's not what you know that gets you hired, but who you know. Which I used to deny for ages because it's depressing and gross, but it's true. Very sad. :\

[demakat]

Yeah the whole thing makes me sad sometimes. It make me want to have a business where I have to hire people too though. I don't know if it makes me angry enough to actually follow through with the business part though. There are so many things floating around in my brain lately. I can't fix the whole world, but I can construct my own inside of it, to some degree.

[willowistari]

Wow exactly! I daydream about that too, opening my own business and hiring people that have skills or really need the job or need help, rather than the way people seem to hire these days. :(