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Oct. 4th, 2013 05:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatThe real answer in the end was that I had been missing out on therapy with one of my friends over skype. The other smaller part is needing to remember that not all of my friends want to be sounding boards for things.
On the other side of the emo-coaster. My grandma stopped by today. I got told I looked like I was losing weight. No. Actually gained weight, joy! Mostly I need to quit eating sugar things unless I make them myself. That worked so well, but I am so lazy. And everyone so eats all my things, because they "look so good". Make your own dairy filled crap look nice then!
I am getting nowhere on having a new goal for myself. It's hard to put a monetary goal out there because I really care very little for money beyond paying my bills. Yeah I like nice stuff sometimes, but most of the extra stuff I buy is food. I wish it were easier to use the kitchen and then actually have stuff in the fridge to eat, but it gets lost behind cheese and cheese and yogurt and a gallon of milk and some soggy lettuce. So I look in and my brain instantly goes "nope." I tried to have an area for just my stuff, but 6 adults are putting their things in one fridge and it's a mess. Plus my mom goes grocery shopping like we're all going to eat at the house for every mean OR she shops like she is going to make all this wonderful veggie stuff and ends up letting it go bad. And by wonderful veggie stuff apparently I mean bell peppers for as far as the eye can see. "It adds color". true, gross inedible colorfull veggies. The darkest leafy green that normally makes it into the house is romaine lettuce.
I don't want to move out because I can't stand my family. They are fine and often leave me alone, which I like. But the food situation is annoying and it's so easy to just be lazy and order things when they are sending someone to go out to eat. Plus all the dishes are always dirty, and if there is a pile of dirty dishes and you happen to be standing near it...weeeeee now it's your duty to clean them all! Even the pot full of macaroni and cheese that has dried on because it's been there so long. Really I just need to cave in and get myself a rice cooker for my room and make 1 serving things, or 2 serving things. Put the extra bit in tupperware for tomorrow. I'm at a grocery store nearly every day anyhow to shop for fresh stuff.
And as always it would be a million times easier to do all of that if I didn't have shit piled around my room. More needs to go. I feel like I need to make a large pile of things to sort through, and clean everything else. Many things do not currently have a home. I think max I might give myself three drawers (one of which is going to need to be full of kitchen supplies...) I'm going to see if I can get all of my clothes in baskets on a self in my closet.
thes does not matter! because tonight I continue my top gear watching and either finish my knitting project or save the bind-off for tomorrow. It's one I haven't done before. Then on to hats! and I'm trying to commit a washcloth pattern to memory so I can make them anywhere, even after I let my friend's son try to eat the instructions.
On the other side of the emo-coaster. My grandma stopped by today. I got told I looked like I was losing weight. No. Actually gained weight, joy! Mostly I need to quit eating sugar things unless I make them myself. That worked so well, but I am so lazy. And everyone so eats all my things, because they "look so good". Make your own dairy filled crap look nice then!
I am getting nowhere on having a new goal for myself. It's hard to put a monetary goal out there because I really care very little for money beyond paying my bills. Yeah I like nice stuff sometimes, but most of the extra stuff I buy is food. I wish it were easier to use the kitchen and then actually have stuff in the fridge to eat, but it gets lost behind cheese and cheese and yogurt and a gallon of milk and some soggy lettuce. So I look in and my brain instantly goes "nope." I tried to have an area for just my stuff, but 6 adults are putting their things in one fridge and it's a mess. Plus my mom goes grocery shopping like we're all going to eat at the house for every mean OR she shops like she is going to make all this wonderful veggie stuff and ends up letting it go bad. And by wonderful veggie stuff apparently I mean bell peppers for as far as the eye can see. "It adds color". true, gross inedible colorfull veggies. The darkest leafy green that normally makes it into the house is romaine lettuce.
I don't want to move out because I can't stand my family. They are fine and often leave me alone, which I like. But the food situation is annoying and it's so easy to just be lazy and order things when they are sending someone to go out to eat. Plus all the dishes are always dirty, and if there is a pile of dirty dishes and you happen to be standing near it...weeeeee now it's your duty to clean them all! Even the pot full of macaroni and cheese that has dried on because it's been there so long. Really I just need to cave in and get myself a rice cooker for my room and make 1 serving things, or 2 serving things. Put the extra bit in tupperware for tomorrow. I'm at a grocery store nearly every day anyhow to shop for fresh stuff.
And as always it would be a million times easier to do all of that if I didn't have shit piled around my room. More needs to go. I feel like I need to make a large pile of things to sort through, and clean everything else. Many things do not currently have a home. I think max I might give myself three drawers (one of which is going to need to be full of kitchen supplies...) I'm going to see if I can get all of my clothes in baskets on a self in my closet.
thes does not matter! because tonight I continue my top gear watching and either finish my knitting project or save the bind-off for tomorrow. It's one I haven't done before. Then on to hats! and I'm trying to commit a washcloth pattern to memory so I can make them anywhere, even after I let my friend's son try to eat the instructions.
