I am tired.

[demakat]

I am so tired of everything right now.

I'm tired of meeting new people.
I'm tired of not being able to hang out with the ones I already know.
I'm tired of getting really super tired after I eat food, it is probably bread stuff. I don't have that issue when I eat mostly meats, fruits and veggies.
I'm tired of working on this interview stuff. I'm tired of working so hard for what feels like nothing. I'm so burned out I didn't even get a high off of carving out my crocodile for the cover of my portfolio. I don't want to print it because I am so tired.

I just want to pour myself into another person for a while so they can carry me. I don't have anyone who will do that though.

I'm tired of missing people. I'm sad about not being missed in return, or not knowing it.

I just want something solid sometimes. I'm scared about things I have no control over and I would like someone to hold my hand while I fall. I want someone to tell me things, stories, life, while I work.

I am tired of summer. It's not even too hot or anything, I am just not a fan.

Everyone tells me that paying off on of my credit debts today is great and I should feel proud. I feel scared. I don't have time right now to celebrate, I don't even know if I can. If even I know how. Eventually all the burdens will be removed, but I will still wake every day and walk on. There is no stopping. If I don't get up, then there is nothing. It's the end of the day that is hard.

I'm dehydrated.