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Aug. 9th, 2013 09:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatTired of doing everything at work by myself. Turns out that the lead signmaker isn't actually coming back next week probably.
I also haven't heard anything at all about the interview for the job I want. I would at least appreciate a rejection letter so I would know if I need to start looking for a job. One that probably has shittier benefits than this one.
It's an emo-coaster week and I feel like for once I'm doing an okay job not flipping out at people. I feel like the dog that everyone thinks is an idiot when really it's the first to notice that things have changed, even slightly. I'm just afraid no one will ever actually want the idiot-dog I am. That is always the fear. I know really I have more to offer than being an idiot-dog, but sometimes that's all I can be and I want someone to like that anyhow.
I kind of just want cuddles right now. Not going to happen though. More sad about this right now than the fear that I'll be alone forever.
I also haven't heard anything at all about the interview for the job I want. I would at least appreciate a rejection letter so I would know if I need to start looking for a job. One that probably has shittier benefits than this one.
It's an emo-coaster week and I feel like for once I'm doing an okay job not flipping out at people. I feel like the dog that everyone thinks is an idiot when really it's the first to notice that things have changed, even slightly. I'm just afraid no one will ever actually want the idiot-dog I am. That is always the fear. I know really I have more to offer than being an idiot-dog, but sometimes that's all I can be and I want someone to like that anyhow.
I kind of just want cuddles right now. Not going to happen though. More sad about this right now than the fear that I'll be alone forever.
