How broken?
Jun. 15th, 2013 05:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I have been super tired the last two days. I don't understand why. Either I am getting sick or my brain chemisty is just super excited about this physical activity shit. Since thursday I've been all excited about sunday morning lame jogging, and now I feel kind of shitty but I still really can't wait. It's like the feeling before you get to go on vacation. It. is. scaring. me. Going anyhow mothafuckas! Or something hardcore like that.
It's so weird because no one I know runs because they think it is fun. I have not encountered that yet. My mom does her run/jog/walkie thing because it is like meditation for her. But other than that, people I know do it for exercise only. Being who I am I do not feel any social, moral or personal responsibility to get exercise for myself. I am doing this because it FEELS hilarious. I sound insane. I am probably. But the medical community only cares about the fact that I'm getting exercise, so yay, you go crazy lady!
The OTHER reason I feel broken is that I got the new animal crossing game. I was at work and I was thinking about how awesome it would be when I get home to play. Got home, got some foods and changed out of work clothes...I'm afraid of ruining my town. Other people can visit me this time and I'm afraid of having people show up and it being ugly because I don't know what I'm doing. This has got to be one of my dumber irrational fears. PLUS I know that eventually life will happen and I'll forget to take care of things, so it will eventually look ugly. I don't know. I'm going to play anyhow, but I probably won't feel better till I visit someone else and their town is as bad as mine. Going to be an eccentric mayor though. I hope there is place to put up a picture of yourself as mayor...
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Okay so...I feel left out of life. I know not everyone watches tv, just like not everyone drinks, etc. BUT it feels like so many people consume tv like it is air. It's like everyone is covered in honey and thinks it is great but no. Being that sticky forever would make me cry so so hard.
I just don't care. I like some shows, but often not enough to keep watching. An example is that I really liked the show House. I even own/ed seasons 1 and 2, but eventually I did not care anymore. Same for Bones. I don't know if it's that there is no conclusion or what. The only thing that I've kept watching is Top Gear and that's on netflix, and even that I take month/year long breaks from. I'm on season 11 of 18-19 available. I've been watching it since I got netflix over two years ago!
Maybe I just feel extra left out because so many people I interact with like watching tv as a hobby. I just don't know how to interact with them when they go all geeky about their show(s!). I'm not even upset when people tell me I should watch something. I would probably really like arrested development. I just don't want to sit through that much tv. I have things I could be making or doing...like planning out imaginary villages in a game.
I have been super tired the last two days. I don't understand why. Either I am getting sick or my brain chemisty is just super excited about this physical activity shit. Since thursday I've been all excited about sunday morning lame jogging, and now I feel kind of shitty but I still really can't wait. It's like the feeling before you get to go on vacation. It. is. scaring. me. Going anyhow mothafuckas! Or something hardcore like that.
It's so weird because no one I know runs because they think it is fun. I have not encountered that yet. My mom does her run/jog/walkie thing because it is like meditation for her. But other than that, people I know do it for exercise only. Being who I am I do not feel any social, moral or personal responsibility to get exercise for myself. I am doing this because it FEELS hilarious. I sound insane. I am probably. But the medical community only cares about the fact that I'm getting exercise, so yay, you go crazy lady!
The OTHER reason I feel broken is that I got the new animal crossing game. I was at work and I was thinking about how awesome it would be when I get home to play. Got home, got some foods and changed out of work clothes...I'm afraid of ruining my town. Other people can visit me this time and I'm afraid of having people show up and it being ugly because I don't know what I'm doing. This has got to be one of my dumber irrational fears. PLUS I know that eventually life will happen and I'll forget to take care of things, so it will eventually look ugly. I don't know. I'm going to play anyhow, but I probably won't feel better till I visit someone else and their town is as bad as mine. Going to be an eccentric mayor though. I hope there is place to put up a picture of yourself as mayor...
edit:
Okay so...I feel left out of life. I know not everyone watches tv, just like not everyone drinks, etc. BUT it feels like so many people consume tv like it is air. It's like everyone is covered in honey and thinks it is great but no. Being that sticky forever would make me cry so so hard.
I just don't care. I like some shows, but often not enough to keep watching. An example is that I really liked the show House. I even own/ed seasons 1 and 2, but eventually I did not care anymore. Same for Bones. I don't know if it's that there is no conclusion or what. The only thing that I've kept watching is Top Gear and that's on netflix, and even that I take month/year long breaks from. I'm on season 11 of 18-19 available. I've been watching it since I got netflix over two years ago!
Maybe I just feel extra left out because so many people I interact with like watching tv as a hobby. I just don't know how to interact with them when they go all geeky about their show(s!). I'm not even upset when people tell me I should watch something. I would probably really like arrested development. I just don't want to sit through that much tv. I have things I could be making or doing...like planning out imaginary villages in a game.
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Date: 2013-06-15 10:44 pm (UTC)I know if you go a long time without weeding you can pay one of the shop owners to pick them all for you too, so there's that.
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Date: 2013-06-16 12:12 am (UTC)Paths are a nice idea but I would so run all over the grass anyhow, so nope on those.
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