lame jogging.
Jun. 2nd, 2013 03:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatThis morning I got up at 6...then finally left the house at 6:30. To go for a jog. Right now it's lame jogging because I can't actually run for that long without hating everything ever. I did wear my sandals that tie on and it was pretty weird. I mostly gave it a try because lately I've wanted to run distances, kind of like how little kids will just run for the joy of running. Mostly I'm walking with people though, and it's very much 'oh yeah what you're saying is cool but...' *fleeeee* and apparently that is generally considered impolite.
I probably actually ran for 10 whole minutes together, because I spent most of my time walking. I'm not very good at pushing myself and at the first mental twinge of 'this is not fun' I would slow down and walk. I don't want it to be not fun.
I saw a toad when first jogged and first slowed to a walk. There was the toad. The later I had slowed again and was talking and scared a worm. The trail was covered in what I like to call cat litter and so was the worm. It rightly freaked out a little when I went to pick it up, but I can only hope is living a longer wormy life now that I put him to the side. "Oh I know, but you're covered in the kitty litters" ...things like this are probably why it's good I do this alone. Nothing like talking to the wildlife to set more "normal" people to thinking you're crazy.
I may have also seen an indigo bunting out there. You would think, being so brilliantly blue, that they would be easy to see in the trees. This is not the case. I first saw one they pulled out a mist net when I was at a work station in canada. I just couldn't believe something that bright was hiding in the trees.
whatbird.com seems to think it was a lazuli bunting but those shouldn't be in this range. It's back was so blue though....
When I finally made it back to my car I mostly wasn't sure driving was something anyone should let me do. I didn't even feel like my legs were tingly, the way they will be when I take long walks. I didn't feel noodly or anything either. Just sort of drained. It was probably too much to take in at one time.
This all goes along with the theme of my life. I need to want to do things for them to happen. Even if I think something is an awesome idea but I don't want to do it yet, doesn't happen. Plus I need to slowly work myself towards what I want and trick myself into it OR be totally ready for it. Like how I wanted to run. If I don't want to, I don't really see a reason to do much of anything.
I probably actually ran for 10 whole minutes together, because I spent most of my time walking. I'm not very good at pushing myself and at the first mental twinge of 'this is not fun' I would slow down and walk. I don't want it to be not fun.
I saw a toad when first jogged and first slowed to a walk. There was the toad. The later I had slowed again and was talking and scared a worm. The trail was covered in what I like to call cat litter and so was the worm. It rightly freaked out a little when I went to pick it up, but I can only hope is living a longer wormy life now that I put him to the side. "Oh I know, but you're covered in the kitty litters" ...things like this are probably why it's good I do this alone. Nothing like talking to the wildlife to set more "normal" people to thinking you're crazy.
I may have also seen an indigo bunting out there. You would think, being so brilliantly blue, that they would be easy to see in the trees. This is not the case. I first saw one they pulled out a mist net when I was at a work station in canada. I just couldn't believe something that bright was hiding in the trees.
whatbird.com seems to think it was a lazuli bunting but those shouldn't be in this range. It's back was so blue though....
When I finally made it back to my car I mostly wasn't sure driving was something anyone should let me do. I didn't even feel like my legs were tingly, the way they will be when I take long walks. I didn't feel noodly or anything either. Just sort of drained. It was probably too much to take in at one time.
This all goes along with the theme of my life. I need to want to do things for them to happen. Even if I think something is an awesome idea but I don't want to do it yet, doesn't happen. Plus I need to slowly work myself towards what I want and trick myself into it OR be totally ready for it. Like how I wanted to run. If I don't want to, I don't really see a reason to do much of anything.
