Full of words!

I'm suppose to hang out with more people today, but I'm starting to get tired of the cycle of work then hanging out on the weekends. I was never made for this much socializing. It also doesn't help that I've run out of things to talk about, and no one really cares about the things I do want to discuss.

Things I want to talk about

• How I can't comprehend people telling me I'm doing a good job at work. Why? "just say thank you" is a pretty shitty solution because it doesn't resolve anything, though it does usually get the person to go away. Or awkward happens. joy...
  
• How things seem to be conspiring in a good way for once, but its happening quickly and I don't like the speed at which change travels. Speed of Change > what you are comfortable with always, even when you don't realize its happening. When you do notice it will still have been too fast.
  
• How I should make T-shirt Designs, because I draw amusing things sometimes, it resolves my lack of care for having a background to an image, and I stand to make some kind of money because the production and shipping part doesn't rest in my hands. My hands are pretty shit when it comes to using a mailbox. I'm not sure why, because I find the whole process fascinating, I just keep forgetting to DO it. [I will also accept conversation about the U.S.P.S in general or in comparison to other post services. I know very little about what is happening with this and I learn well when people explain things to me.]
  
• Why everyone even cares about TV. I can't seem to watch an entire show and not get bored. I failed at Miss Marple, Top Gear, MLP. I super fail at movies a lot too.
  
• Tiny houses and built in storage. I would also like someone else to get excited with me about turning a bathroom stall into a tiny house/apartment. It would totally be doable, but probably only feel spacious with a handcap stall.
  
• Unconventional uses for things. Like if you took apart a toaster what else could you make out of it. What if you had to make all your furniture out of other things? what would you use?
  
• Tattoos and piercings. How their conotations are changing progressively, and how things might be when my generation range becomes the majority of the adult population. Also why people think its weird for me to wear earrings I never take out. To me its like getting a tattoo, but because its in my ear I should just change it out when ever other people feel I should. I wouldn't ask someone else to do this... Problems or isses of people with tattoos, apparently they get asked lots of weird questions - the possible whys, and reasons behind this. (it seems I enjoy speculation on social mechanics? or something?)
  

Things I want people to tell me and then talk about

• A list of things they think are awesome and why. I find this incredibly interesting.
  • I enjoy the feeling of putting a regular pencil on paper and writing, or pretending to write. I want to take the motions and paint using them, just that complete disregard you have for the motions your hand has practiced for so long you don't have to think about doing, you just think about thoughts.
  
  
• How to do stuff that they care about. Teach me things, preferably with hand drawn diagrams.
  
• How this one guy I know processes social interactions. I want an explination, because I can almost see the process happen as he thinks about it, but I kind of want to know what he thinks about it and why he thinks it processes like that. But sadly this is unlikely to happen because it seems like a mildly personal thing and I'm generally non-confrontational (despite what I say about maiming people) and I feel like it would be detrimental to him. He may think he is fooling everyone. He might not even be doing anything, it might just take a while for his brain to work on the auto-prompts most people work off of instantly. I guess this is interesting for me because I look at social situations from a different perspective, and often personally fail to do the correct thing resulting in an awkward moment.
  
• U.S.P.S. (from the above list). I just want to know more about things, and would enjoy some comparison with peoples experiences using other post systems.
  

What I really don't want to talk about anymore right now (but again eventually because sometimes you just need to talk this stuff out too)

• Other people and how much they bother someone because they follow current trend. Just leave them be, maybe they'll still be a hipster when hipsters stop being cool because they actually like those things and this is their glory time of life and they won't be able to find clothing for the next 30 years because everything looks ugly to them, you don't know. Also if they follow trends for the sake of following trends. This doesn't matter! Why? Because its not you and they are not forcing you to do it. (and if they care pop them in the face and walk away, or just walk away, which ever you feel like)
  
• How one friend doesn't like another. Yet I'm still friends with everyone of the group (mostly, we all lost touch with one guy). I know everyone has their quirks, but I am tired of being reminded about them all the time when previously I could mostly ignore it because it didn't impede our friendship.
  
• How I'm not sure I'm using words in the right context anymore, ever. I feel so dumb but I keep going anyhow. I read one book again lately and my vocab seems to have blossomed abstractly. I will address this as an issue at a later time when I have a better grasp of my hormones and mind. So for the time being lets just pretend everyone knows what I'm talking about.
  

I want it to not be summer anymore. I'm not super hot and awful feeling this year, but I still don't like it. I'm so much better at hoodies and snow and hot drinks, and hunkering down for a blizzard.

I desperately want to cuddle with people. My body is weird and achy and I feel like crying when I remember that its generally unacceptable to glorm all over people and just kind of hang off of them. Its bad puppy manners or something. Also someone would have to do it to me because I won't start, and they would have to do it long enough to melt my barriers. AND that is statistically unlikely to happen, though I have no current data to go off of other than the number of qualifiers (see last bullet point above)

cool things that happened in this post: nested unordered lists. No counting was harmed in the making of this post/list

I would also be really excited to write more people letters back and forth, so long as everyone realizes I fail at mail sometimes. (I have been remember my letters though! I have some going out soon for people waiting.) And it doesn't have to be about any of this stuff, I just felt like making a list because I've had to talk with so many people lately.