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Jun. 4th, 2012 08:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatI'm sitting next to my piggy bank. He is full of pennies and ideally tomorrow I'm going to go turn in my change.
I hope to transition to paying for things in only cash soon. It seems kind of dumb, but I think it will really help me save money. I've mostly managed not to put anything else on a credit card for a while now. I suppose it helps that I have a savings back up, but that is what its there for.
Budgeting seems to be in the cards. I think it will be used mostly as a reference guide for things. Its like checking a map on a road trip, just to be sure you're still going the right direction.
I washed my hair with dr. bronners soap and it is going to be fro-tastic tomorrow. I also got oil in my eye (for my skins so I has the pretty) OR on my eyelashes? When I look certain directions it is weirdly foggy.
Today I've been going back and forth between feeling ugly (not true, but that doesn't always matter) and feeling connected to everything. It felt good and I kept remembering the thing that I heard in the group meditation. I am whole, right here right now.
I had to go move my car into the driveway because it was parked on the street, and its dark out and I when ever I do that I always want to walk down by this guy's house I've known most of my life. We stopped talking some time in grade school or jr high, I miss him. Yet I don't know who he is anymore. I pretend that he would be willing to walk with me in the dark, something that no one else will really do with me. But I never go over there, because I'm afraid. He was also the first person who told me to stop acting strange. Maybe I just want resolution for that? It feels more like wanting to connect again though. It could also be that I use to know him and I tend to feel much more comfortable with people I use to know than brand new people.
I also thought a lot today about what it is I want to do. And the answer seems to be "I don't know" which is fine, but its starting to get a little more direction than it had.
I hope to transition to paying for things in only cash soon. It seems kind of dumb, but I think it will really help me save money. I've mostly managed not to put anything else on a credit card for a while now. I suppose it helps that I have a savings back up, but that is what its there for.
Budgeting seems to be in the cards. I think it will be used mostly as a reference guide for things. Its like checking a map on a road trip, just to be sure you're still going the right direction.
I washed my hair with dr. bronners soap and it is going to be fro-tastic tomorrow. I also got oil in my eye (for my skins so I has the pretty) OR on my eyelashes? When I look certain directions it is weirdly foggy.
Today I've been going back and forth between feeling ugly (not true, but that doesn't always matter) and feeling connected to everything. It felt good and I kept remembering the thing that I heard in the group meditation. I am whole, right here right now.
I had to go move my car into the driveway because it was parked on the street, and its dark out and I when ever I do that I always want to walk down by this guy's house I've known most of my life. We stopped talking some time in grade school or jr high, I miss him. Yet I don't know who he is anymore. I pretend that he would be willing to walk with me in the dark, something that no one else will really do with me. But I never go over there, because I'm afraid. He was also the first person who told me to stop acting strange. Maybe I just want resolution for that? It feels more like wanting to connect again though. It could also be that I use to know him and I tend to feel much more comfortable with people I use to know than brand new people.
I also thought a lot today about what it is I want to do. And the answer seems to be "I don't know" which is fine, but its starting to get a little more direction than it had.
