me avioding doing things
Oct. 26th, 2013 05:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatI need to go to the store and get more pointy things for my cactus costume. It's looking more awesome than I thought they would.
But I'm cold and I don't want to go out. I'm missing having more friends near me and I'm missing having people to talk to. Could just be winter and me wanting to hibernate.
I've been getting hit with 'not good enough' feelings all day. I'm still excited for some of my things, but they haven't been posted yet and the excitement is waning. Probably because I am done with them and ready to do other things.
Sometimes I wish I cared about one thing, or a few things, instead of everything.
I should know by now, when I feel confident in myself and whole in the morning. The evening will leave me sad and lonely.
Maybe that's it. Maybe I only write here when I'm lonely. Would explain a lot.
But I'm cold and I don't want to go out. I'm missing having more friends near me and I'm missing having people to talk to. Could just be winter and me wanting to hibernate.
I've been getting hit with 'not good enough' feelings all day. I'm still excited for some of my things, but they haven't been posted yet and the excitement is waning. Probably because I am done with them and ready to do other things.
Sometimes I wish I cared about one thing, or a few things, instead of everything.
I should know by now, when I feel confident in myself and whole in the morning. The evening will leave me sad and lonely.
Maybe that's it. Maybe I only write here when I'm lonely. Would explain a lot.
