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Jun. 20th, 2013 09:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatAs far as I know my coworker is out on paternity leave as of today. The schedule to deal with this doesn't go into effect for another week. I have to deal with 4th of july stuff on my own. I left only a half hour late because I was just done. There is so much to do and so many things I need to organize for myself. On top of things I want to orchestrate I also have to deal with the single item requests everyone is sending. It's actually toned down quite a bit lately but I still get them.
Then the files we've gotten for everything this season don't want to print because they're set up with these monster textures on everything. I sent something to print and a half hour later the printer was still thinking about maybe printing 1 of them. The other 49 copies I needed? Not likely. So I was having to deconstruct all the files before I sent to print so it would actually go through. I probably wasted 3 hours today just getting files to print that should have already been ready to go. Tomorrow and Saturday I don't even get full days in the office because I have to do my other job.
I feel kind of stressed out. I know that I can handle this, I've done it before. But it's a case of my feelings not really giving a flying fuck about logic. Plus I totally just ate chocolate and I think the sugar is messing with me.
Tried to run last night around the neighborhood and it was shitty. I started to get all disappointed and I felt really alone. No one can ever torture me more than my own imagination. I'm also super conflicted about the possibility of moving out. There is an acquaintance from new york state that is thinking seriously about moving here, but he would need someone to split rent with. Everything I've been doing lately is telling me to do this, but it's scary. In the same way that going to the coworker party thing in april was scary and now I wouldn't have as many issues. It would force me to get rid of all the things I've been trying to get rid of. But it wouldn't be me affording a place all on my own like I always wanted.
I want to run math about this but...I haven't yet. It also means my diet would change to mostly rice, beans and veggies because I wouldn't be able to afford expensive things like meat. It also means I would be further away from the truck and trailer gallivanting I want to do. But I guess life is more like those labyrinths than anyone really wants it to be. I can see where I want to go, but it will never be a straight line.
Then the files we've gotten for everything this season don't want to print because they're set up with these monster textures on everything. I sent something to print and a half hour later the printer was still thinking about maybe printing 1 of them. The other 49 copies I needed? Not likely. So I was having to deconstruct all the files before I sent to print so it would actually go through. I probably wasted 3 hours today just getting files to print that should have already been ready to go. Tomorrow and Saturday I don't even get full days in the office because I have to do my other job.
I feel kind of stressed out. I know that I can handle this, I've done it before. But it's a case of my feelings not really giving a flying fuck about logic. Plus I totally just ate chocolate and I think the sugar is messing with me.
Tried to run last night around the neighborhood and it was shitty. I started to get all disappointed and I felt really alone. No one can ever torture me more than my own imagination. I'm also super conflicted about the possibility of moving out. There is an acquaintance from new york state that is thinking seriously about moving here, but he would need someone to split rent with. Everything I've been doing lately is telling me to do this, but it's scary. In the same way that going to the coworker party thing in april was scary and now I wouldn't have as many issues. It would force me to get rid of all the things I've been trying to get rid of. But it wouldn't be me affording a place all on my own like I always wanted.
I want to run math about this but...I haven't yet. It also means my diet would change to mostly rice, beans and veggies because I wouldn't be able to afford expensive things like meat. It also means I would be further away from the truck and trailer gallivanting I want to do. But I guess life is more like those labyrinths than anyone really wants it to be. I can see where I want to go, but it will never be a straight line.
