this was too much for twitter.

wooooords.

UH! someone who loves their job marry me so I don't have to work and I can just be happy all day! I am mostly responsible and rather incredibly devoted. I like pets, water and hammocks. I use to dream of having a house that was a pool with a bed in it. Now I imagine every public bathroom stall into a micro living space, complete with under floor storage.

aaaand my desk is cluttered again. I'm going to have to make a hobby out of clearing it off.

Using the radio feature on grooveshark is...it doesn't work for me. I am likely to enjoy some things on pandora and everything that comes up on grooveshark is... not what I like. It seems to be artist you chose -> other artists like that on grooveshark and for pandora its songs you like -> other songs like that. which works much better because I generally like a song not really the artists. It doesn't help that lately lots of albums coming out have one pop song and then everything else is like they normally play....

its about to rain though and I'm headed off to see about crocheting things for more people having babies. oh and coffee.

ha I can still hear the slime hopping around from last night.

How much I fail at life - 2 posts for the day.

Welp looks like all the neighbors are stopping by today. Now the girl my age who use to live down the street has brought her kid and sister down to talk to my mom. (again probably about the house fire on the corner)

I'm not even going to go out there. Not only have I hardly ever had a boyfriend but I certainly don't have a job that allows me to move out of the house.

I never planned anything beyond graduating college, but I kind of hoped for general things. I don't even care so much about being married to anyone, but I would like a significant other and I certainly wouldn't mind having a kidlet. I wanted my own place to see how far I could stretch things that other people considered trash.

Instead I still live at home with my parents thanks to debt for school, and I can't get a boyfriend to save my damn life. I don't seem to have the social skills to do so.

Yet having any of that probably would make life worse not better. I would probably rarely be left alone as I prefer. Can I not be the constant in someone's life and just let them come and go. Except no one ever returns.

why do I allow myself to feel inferior?