demakat

Okay so did NOT get the job. Originally the main signmaker I work with was angry for me at people for not giving me the job. But we've since found out that the person in charge at the regional level is actually not so bad. Everyone thinks I need to do mock interviews. I think this will go poorly because 1) I've done so many interviews already, I don't think they realize this, and 2) I know these people already and I will respond incredibly differently.

I got told that I need to be more positive when I talk about things.
crap happened but I did this amazing thing and it turned out awesome vs. I did this awesome thing and it turned out amazing and I did it because crap happened

and apparently I am awesome, but I don't act like I know I'm awesome. I get a confused look when I tell people about this. The way everything has always felt to me is like people are making a fuss about the fact that I can breathe. Yeah of course I can breathe, its just something I do. Design crap and draw things, that's just something I do. It just happens. Not to say I don't work at it and I don't try to learn new things, I just don't think about it like some amazing super power.

I was told to throw the main signmaker "under the bus" by HIM, and he said that I should take credit for everything.
first of all. No.
and second I am not going to say I did everything. I don't exist in a vacuum! I didn't do it all on my own why should I say I did? If I were interviewing I would want to know the person could work with other people, not just take credit for everything ever. I told him that I'm just not that sort of girl, which got a ha ha but I was kind of disappointed in the advice in general.

I was also told that I had to be more concise with my answers instead of telling stories. That I should be more confident about myself.

I'm sure that in my 6 month review I'm going to get "complimented" on the fact that I didn't throw a tantrum about not getting the job.

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WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE!
I don't want to throw anyone "under the bus" EVER! What. The. Fuck. is wrong with people?
I don't want to take credit for things I did not do!
WHY is is commendable that I don't throw a hissy fit about not getting a job?! Enough people must actually do this so that my not doing it makes me seem amazing. WTF!

I didn't want to go to Orland. It was presented to me as a good idea money wise, and resume wise for other things I DO want to do. So I did it.
Afterwards I realized that I don't like the people who would be customers out there, and I don't want to leave the city. I like the city*
So yes I could use more money to pay bills with, and I do want to move to canada eventually. But I think I need to do it my way.

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Enough about that crap.
I went to new york! and painted a giant map of the world on my friend's wall with them. There were kittens. I don't really have any good pictures though. We were mostly paint covered when we were in the living room with them. They are so melty? I'd be holding one and it would leak out of my arms to the floor. Then when I came home I was surprised at how solid our cat is. The kittens would sort of fall over if you tried to pet them deeeply. My cat loves it, the little kitties didn't seem to know how to function yet. They were sort of tiny teen cats (tiny teen cat rangers!) when I saw them, lots of spilled water and things being eaten that shouldn't be.

Then I came home, had a crazy work week where I basically picked up lots of slack on the production work we do. I think someone has a slight focus problem, but to be fair he was also preparing to move two bands worth of gear and people to europe for three weeks. So as of tomorrow I'm running signmaking solo for three weeks. I have help each friday because I still have to do my other job in cashup. I'll probably have issues with doing hand lettering on boards. Wednesday when we do lots of boards is going to be a time and a half...in lettering hell. I'll get the hang of it eventually but its going to be an adjustment.

One way or another I am going to fix some of the artwork on those things though. looks like crap because we try to reuse it, but eventually everything gets all blotchy and weird. Been a big fan of stencils for things...

I should look up like graffiti stuff because every time I look up hand lettering I just get boring things.

Then I went to the renaissance faire with one of my friends yesterday. Its lost its charm for me somewhat. We talked about the fact that we've never really felt the need to dress up and act things out like many of the people do there. Not that they shouldn't, I've just never felt like doing so.

Guys need to stop being attractive. I think I am going to go insane. Please do put your shirt back on...but ya know not before I get a good look. Oddly enough I don't much care for the ones that are super muscled. I accidentally saw some guy being tired or something? He seemed really surprised when he caught me looking. It wasn't even Ogling, it was more like walking by and OH thats a person/dude/no shirt/Ooo/ahlookingatme! as I walked by. There were also many defeated looking dudes I kind of wanted to hug and tell them they were cute and to own the things they enjoyed in life. Of course many of them were being dragged around by very bossy ladies... no comment.

Then I got to breakfast this morning and talk about things and life. I haven't done much since I go home. Made it through half of my 600 google reader things, jeez. I think I'm just going to skim reddit or something from now on and really widdle down all the blogs I read on the other thing.

very important stuff! no. not really.
aww I feel all inspired to draw things. wish dinner wasn't soon.

found frozen brownies in the freezer, apparently no one eats them when they're in plain view in the freezer. so win? cause I will so eat them frozen. freezy treats! I want to add peanut butter next time.

Banana chips are crisping in the dehydrator. Hope they turn out! Apples were a success...though being the first batch I could tell that my grandma had at some point used the thing to make jerky...meaty apples? mmm? It was washed and everything...but still. Maybe something with the blower and drippy things. no idea.

I am no just rambling. I missed you so internets and all my lovely internets friends :3
Its time to sit and knit though. Its still hot, but I can feel the wind is cool.

*I like the city despite the fact that I've found its actually less tolerant of people who don't fit in a sub-category, compared to the suburbs. I still like it anyhow. Some day I'm gonna go be the crazy white lady in an ethnic neighborhood and live it up (by getting rid of my lawn).