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Jun. 29th, 2012 10:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
demakatI feel like its night time. A storm is passing through and it keeps getting darker. I think today is going to be a pancake day.
I don't really feel like drawing. I don't know if I'm kind of depressed and just don't know it, or what is really going on. Everything I do just seems stale and like I'm forcing it a whole lot. Its probably also a case of not drawing and then not wanting to draw.
My characters are people most often now, and I kind of don't want to share. My mind has them doing all sorts of things, but I don't feel compelled to draw them. Maybe I'm embarassed to draw them?
Maybe I can't figure out the puzzle because my stomach just complained loudly about not being fed.
I've been considering using the last of my fun money to buy myself skyrim. I also got paid by my friend for doing graphic stuff for her and I think I'm going to use that to play guild wars 2 with her when it comes out. Which isn't till august? She thought it was out, but nowhere will let me buy it except on pre-order.
I'm a little afraid of playing games because 1)I'm a baby and I thought portal was creepy and 2) I'm afraid of getting sucked into them. Like I don't do anything else I would normally want to do. I guess it doesn't last long though, because I was able to put minecraft aside easy enough when I needed to. Even though I could play all day today I kind of don't feel like it, which is what has me worried this is becoming a funk.
I'm so tired of feeling like doing nothing, but I feel really drained too. I am not sure how to recharge, but I know it doesn't involve other people. Been doing that and after a few days in a row of socializing I feel like hell. Sleeping makes it worse somehow. Looking at the internet makes me feel ...like there isn't any reason to create things. Its not really coming from anywhere either. I am not sure what is going on, but I am tired of drawing things I don't care about just to say that I am drawing.
maybe I need to read more. I use to read a lot and then I kind of quit that too.
I don't really feel like drawing. I don't know if I'm kind of depressed and just don't know it, or what is really going on. Everything I do just seems stale and like I'm forcing it a whole lot. Its probably also a case of not drawing and then not wanting to draw.
My characters are people most often now, and I kind of don't want to share. My mind has them doing all sorts of things, but I don't feel compelled to draw them. Maybe I'm embarassed to draw them?
Maybe I can't figure out the puzzle because my stomach just complained loudly about not being fed.
I've been considering using the last of my fun money to buy myself skyrim. I also got paid by my friend for doing graphic stuff for her and I think I'm going to use that to play guild wars 2 with her when it comes out. Which isn't till august? She thought it was out, but nowhere will let me buy it except on pre-order.
I'm a little afraid of playing games because 1)I'm a baby and I thought portal was creepy and 2) I'm afraid of getting sucked into them. Like I don't do anything else I would normally want to do. I guess it doesn't last long though, because I was able to put minecraft aside easy enough when I needed to. Even though I could play all day today I kind of don't feel like it, which is what has me worried this is becoming a funk.
I'm so tired of feeling like doing nothing, but I feel really drained too. I am not sure how to recharge, but I know it doesn't involve other people. Been doing that and after a few days in a row of socializing I feel like hell. Sleeping makes it worse somehow. Looking at the internet makes me feel ...like there isn't any reason to create things. Its not really coming from anywhere either. I am not sure what is going on, but I am tired of drawing things I don't care about just to say that I am drawing.
maybe I need to read more. I use to read a lot and then I kind of quit that too.
